WHY???

HI EVERYONE...
Today everything seems so calm nd quiet that i dont hav nything new to think upon.All thoughts,all philosphies,everything are lowering down nd my mind is searching for noise.Till date my life revolved around frends,cricket,writing,love,badminton,nd my mom.Wenever i think to free my arms,people who wer responsible for making me,comes to my mind,nd i stop there only.Many of my frends hav written in my testimonial that it is not easy to calculate me,it is not easy to understand me.The only reason i suppose is that i m very spontaneous.I think nd thn i forgot,i think the next nd i forgot the next.Why i m writing about my self.Is it necessary to give any xplaination WHY i m like this.M i not normal.Plethora of such questions r surfacing me nd m not been able to think why is this happening.I know wat i m going to write may create controversies or may be not,i dont know,but still i want to write.I m writing it beacoz i want it to be written.I m writing about those who wer wid me nd now they r not.

VIKESH:- A very emotional guy who is quiet open in his thoughts but not in his feelings.He thinks wat he sees.He does know wat is right but he doesnt know wat is wrong. i want to tell him tht i find myself lucky to have him in my early days of college.

SANTANU DEORI- A wierdo,total wierdo.We shared school,we shared class,we shared bench,we shared tuitions,we shared sports nd we shared good times together but we didnt talk in these 4 years of college.I dont have his cell number nd we r not in contact.We used to be the best in badminton in mehsana.We went for cluster,regional nd now we dont know in which comapny we r placed.We dont know nything about each oder.But i really enjoy him as a frend.

ADITYA MISHRA:- He was mad.Mad about cricket,mad about just everything.How can i forget those golden moments wen we both used to make fun of pankaj.He gifted me a spect in teachers day nd d spect is still wid me.We played cricket together.Everyone used to feel how can kesher nd aditya be a good buddy.But the truth was he was a guy wid the most innocent heart.He had the heart of a child.I still remember the fight between him nd arun.It was brutal nd scary.Right now i dont know wer is he.I dont know whether he is still the same aditya or some elements of +18 people come inside him.I dont know anything about him presently.I just hope werever he is,he continues annoying people.

DANISH:-We were best frnds wen we wer in primary.i still have the fotograph in which i nd him are looking like rockstars.nd as time progressed , connection between him nd i startd fading.He is a confused guy.He thinks slowly.he do things abnormaly.I,danish and vikesh used to play cricket together in danish's terrace.It was fun.i still remeber the first birthday gift which i got,was frm danish.He gifted me 8 diamonds(in which thr wer 8 differnt games viz chess,ludo,snake nd ladder etc).
We havent talked in these four years nd i dont hav his conatct number.

MANI:-He was the best.Guy wid beautiful heart.I wrote several poems on his honour.We played together.i remember he was the only guy wid whom i used to go out for playing TT during board xams.We shared tuitions together.5 am at morning we used to move for bhatiya uncle tuitions,Those xperience,those memories wer unforgetble.WE do talked a bit in fone in these four years of my college but the frequency ws negligible.I wanted him always as my best buddy but as i said time changes,situation changes nd people too.

Everyone has to travel thru bad nd good times.You meet new people nd u forgot old ones.This is quiet normal.I m not blaming nyone.It is not nyones fault.There is no question of finding faults.The question is same.R changes necessary?Situation will change but is it necessary for people to change themselves.Why do people change?